癮菸 | 嗜酒 | 雙商下線 | 愛吃人肉 | casual coder | console gamer | blogger | loner

This is a personal weblog, where I write down my stories and ideas. I have its on since October 2009. The site is based on Jekyll, and hosted on AWS, powered by S3/CloudFront with Route 53. Everything you see on this site was designed and developed by me. I quit Twitter and Facebook eventually. Personal blogging has been my hobby for years. I prefer to dive deep on a topic that interests me. I tend to write long articles once a while.

應該也是個注定活在自己世界裡的人,很早以前就放棄了與外界的聯繫。這種孤獨不是一種關閉狀態,不是說在文明社會中離群索居;不是像個藝術家那樣愉快的隱居創作;不是當朋友邀約時借病推辭。這種孤獨還要與哀慟區別開,大部分時候哀慟是可以通過調整來恢復的;也要和抑鬱症區別開,根據我的經驗抑鬱症應該是孤獨的症狀,不是誘因。真正的孤獨必須是由內而生、主觀的體驗,不是外在、客觀的狀態。跟獨處沒關係,與他人共處也不能避免我這樣的個體感受到孤獨。我不是刻意斷絕社交,而是當一個人獨活慣了,很容易就明白,一個人想要活下去並且感到快樂,需要的東西其實並不多,不呼朋引伴的生活也無所謂。我覺得自己也不是孤僻、內向或是忌憚社交,應該是自己太能找樂,同時也不急著要找人湊份子。